This is me. I need a push. I am so stalled/dissapointed/frustrated right now. And the crappy thing is, as much as I don't want it to, the push I need, the encouragement, the movement, it all has to come from me (not that I don't love and appreciate you all).
How is it that I KNOW these things, but it seems to do me no good? This last week or two (in which i have been conspicuously absent, commenting, but not blogging) .. have been blah. Bad food choices. Too much food. "Measuring? what's that?" Yesterday for example. I wasn't really hungry all day (dunno why) .. but ended up eating a whole bacon cheeseburger (no bun) for dinner. I could have probably gotten away with nussing.. or at the least just a quarter of it. But Head said "that looks good, you must eat it!" so I did.
My head is evil. I get bored, I want to eat. So I do. It took me 3 days after saying I would to actually unpack my gym bag. And the next day I forget to put it in my car. My weight hasn't gone up.. but it hasn't really gone down either. This just discourages me, which sends me into my cycle of "nothings working, why bother trying" .. I KNOW this.. but somehow am not got at stopping this cycle once it starts.
I just need to do it. It being exercise. IT being measure my food, and stop after a cup (I'm pretty sure I won't be hungry after that). IT being drink water at home. IT being stop making excuses.. Sure I left my gym bag at home, but it's all of 8 minutes from my house to the gym, no reason I couldn't have gotten my stuff and then gone. Sure I ate crap yesterday (and too much of it) but that doesn't mean I should eat crap today.
Each day is a new day and the only person who chooses what kind of day it will be is me. Time for me to grow a pair and make it what I want it to be. (Although if I could borrow a few of Draz's skittles and rainbows that'd be awesome!)