Friday, April 6, 2012

Discouraged, and it's all my fault


For some reason this morning I got really down on my band.  Maybe seeing several people getting revisions to the sleeve, or maybe just the stagnating weight-loss, or the gaining back of my magical 5lb loss.. or all of the above.

I had toyed with the idea of getting the sleeve in the first place, it just seemed a little too new to me.  Not enough info out there  yet.  Of course this morning I was all "maybe I should look into a revision".. like a  year is enough to make a difference in that.  But this morning I was all "does kaiser do revisions? do they cover them? would I have to self pay? etc"

Speaking of, I haven't even been banded a year yet, so I KNOW that I'm not a failure, that I've plenty of time to lose more weight, etc.  But I just FEEL like all progress has stopped.  Of course if that's the case, that's my fault, not the bands fault.  I'm pretty sure I've been the laziest/worst bandster ever, and should probably consider myself lucky to have lost the 70+ lbs that i have lost.  I rarely exercise, I eat way more than I should.  Potato chips and ice cream have been great friends of mine.. not because I need to eat sliders.. just cause I can.

I know that I don't NEED a revision surgery.. Hopefully I never will ($$$)  .. I just need to pull my cr@p together and actually do what I'm supposed to do.

le sigh,

Thursday, April 5, 2012

funny for the day:

This is so true..

warning, she uses a little language (although in this video, not near as much as normal:

Jenna Marbles : How Diets Work


Sunday, April 1, 2012

weigh in

so this whole week i've learned an important lesson. Never re-weigh.  at one point I was in the 212's .. until i stepped back on the scale.  the it was back in the 213's.  this morning i actually weighed the same (supposedly)  after potty as i did before potty.. yeah okay sure..  but my official weigh in is 214.5. so up a bit from last week, but still lower than i'd been hovering for a month or more.  I'll take it.