Friday, April 6, 2012

Discouraged, and it's all my fault


For some reason this morning I got really down on my band.  Maybe seeing several people getting revisions to the sleeve, or maybe just the stagnating weight-loss, or the gaining back of my magical 5lb loss.. or all of the above.

I had toyed with the idea of getting the sleeve in the first place, it just seemed a little too new to me.  Not enough info out there  yet.  Of course this morning I was all "maybe I should look into a revision".. like a  year is enough to make a difference in that.  But this morning I was all "does kaiser do revisions? do they cover them? would I have to self pay? etc"

Speaking of, I haven't even been banded a year yet, so I KNOW that I'm not a failure, that I've plenty of time to lose more weight, etc.  But I just FEEL like all progress has stopped.  Of course if that's the case, that's my fault, not the bands fault.  I'm pretty sure I've been the laziest/worst bandster ever, and should probably consider myself lucky to have lost the 70+ lbs that i have lost.  I rarely exercise, I eat way more than I should.  Potato chips and ice cream have been great friends of mine.. not because I need to eat sliders.. just cause I can.

I know that I don't NEED a revision surgery.. Hopefully I never will ($$$)  .. I just need to pull my cr@p together and actually do what I'm supposed to do.

le sigh,

Thursday, April 5, 2012

funny for the day:

This is so true..

warning, she uses a little language (although in this video, not near as much as normal:

Jenna Marbles : How Diets Work


Sunday, April 1, 2012

weigh in

so this whole week i've learned an important lesson. Never re-weigh.  at one point I was in the 212's .. until i stepped back on the scale.  the it was back in the 213's.  this morning i actually weighed the same (supposedly)  after potty as i did before potty.. yeah okay sure..  but my official weigh in is 214.5. so up a bit from last week, but still lower than i'd been hovering for a month or more.  I'll take it.


Sunday, March 25, 2012

weigh in

I'm pretty sure this is a way artificial low, or all those dreams/thoughts/prayers of magically losing weight finally are starting to come true, but weigh in this morning said 213.5 ... that's like a 5 lb loss from last week.. and a couple of days ago even.  I'll do my best to keep this and not go back up and make it real!!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Picture spam

I'm here with some picture spam

first me, in a dress..  I think h-e- double hockey sticks has frozen over:

Next is a couple of our new Puppy!  his name is Bomber (it came from my hubbys online nickname that he had forever) .. He's a Welsh Corgi and totally ADORABLE!!

For those of you who know corgi's his ears should go up on their own.  Then he'll be even more adorable!! 

That's all I have for now. I might be down a pound or so this week, we'll find out tomorrow! 


Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Did a light bulb just turn on??


I swear, You'd think this whole lap band/weight loss thing was rocket science the way I've been going at it.
But yesterday ... I was good with my food (mostly) and after work I went to the gym for 50 minutes of elliptical, and THEN went home and walked the dog for another 40 min (Thank  you daylight savings!) ..  my bodybugg said those two hours (ish)  burned about 700 calories.  At first I'm all amazed!!  then I'm all .. duh!! That's the whole point of exercise..  And all of that is probably why I was able to eat twice as much dinner as I should have (taco meat, cheese a few a lot of tortilla chips, home made salsa and guac) and still see my lowest weight yet on the scale this morning 217.1  .. not official weight, as it's not Sunday, however, this is encouraging.  Maybe if I actually keep this up I can get back to losing.  and find Onederland! and beyond!
And while I'm at it can I win the lotto so I can afford a trainer?  >.>

In other news, on March 23rd,   we'll be adding a new puppy to our family.  Yup puppy, potty training and all.  But I'm excited, it's a Welsh Corgi!!! so cute!!
Our puppy will be one of these
Also also, I don't think I mentioned this, but in my absence from blog land I figured out my painful elbow is due to tennis elbow.  joy >.<   So i've got a brace on, and whenever I remember I do my stretches.. And soon I get to learn the exercises to make this not happen again.  so yay!

But that's it for now.  Hopeing to stay excited enough to keep up what I'm doing!