Also, I've been watching Heavy on netflix. I think I'm taking the wrong things away from this show. Don't get me wrong, I like it. It's moving. But my main thoughts are a) That's not fair, I want someone to pay for a personal trainer for me! and b) Not fair, they weigh about what I weigh now, and are getting their belly fat/flap removed. (and also "hey, she's going in for surgery with make-up on! that's a no-no")
Half of me watches this show and thinks "if they can do it, I can do it" and the other half of me refers back to my previous "not fair" statements. I know life isn't fair. I know there's a lot of stuff I can do myself without a trainer. But I also know that'd help so much. Someone to help keep me accountable every week. Help me switch up (or even start) a routine. It's frustrating. I need to win the lotto.