Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Nothing too deep or insightful today. I think I'm just amused with the emotions I'm having with this weight-loss. They're not what I would have expected. I mean .. I'm almost dreading the day when my wedding/engagement rings won't fit. That day is soon. I know part of that is I have a bad habit of imagining what other people are thinking about me. And for a long time I was imagining "oh the poor fat girl will never have anybody" .. even though I DID have someone, lacking the visible proof I assumed everyone thought I was alone.
I'm also .. annoyed that my pants are getting too big. I'm happy, but at the same time.. annoyed when i have to hike them up.
The obvious weirdness is the "OMG I've lost 60lbs from my highest ever!!" which then swings to "OMG I've got another 60lbs (or more) to lose, I'll never do that"
I know I had a few other examples in my head a few minutes ago, but they flitted away. So I think I'll leave you with the statement that somehow I expected all "Happy Happy Joy Joy" and am confused by the other feelings leaking in.
p.s. bananas hurt :(