For some reason this morning I got really down on my band. Maybe seeing several people getting revisions to the sleeve, or maybe just the stagnating weight-loss, or the gaining back of my magical 5lb loss.. or all of the above.
I had toyed with the idea of getting the sleeve in the first place, it just seemed a little too new to me. Not enough info out there yet. Of course this morning I was all "maybe I should look into a revision".. like a year is enough to make a difference in that. But this morning I was all "does kaiser do revisions? do they cover them? would I have to self pay? etc"
Speaking of, I haven't even been banded a year yet, so I KNOW that I'm not a failure, that I've plenty of time to lose more weight, etc. But I just FEEL like all progress has stopped. Of course if that's the case, that's my fault, not the bands fault. I'm pretty sure I've been the laziest/worst bandster ever, and should probably consider myself lucky to have lost the 70+ lbs that i have lost. I rarely exercise, I eat way more than I should. Potato chips and ice cream have been great friends of mine.. not because I need to eat sliders.. just cause I can.
I know that I don't NEED a revision surgery.. Hopefully I never will ($$$) .. I just need to pull my cr@p together and actually do what I'm supposed to do.