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Sam
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Friday, April 6, 2012
Discouraged, and it's all my fault
Blah,
For some reason this morning I got really down on my band. Maybe seeing several people getting revisions to the sleeve, or maybe just the stagnating weight-loss, or the gaining back of my magical 5lb loss.. or all of the above.
I had toyed with the idea of getting the sleeve in the first place, it just seemed a little too new to me. Not enough info out there yet. Of course this morning I was all "maybe I should look into a revision".. like a year is enough to make a difference in that. But this morning I was all "does kaiser do revisions? do they cover them? would I have to self pay? etc"
Speaking of, I haven't even been banded a year yet, so I KNOW that I'm not a failure, that I've plenty of time to lose more weight, etc. But I just FEEL like all progress has stopped. Of course if that's the case, that's my fault, not the bands fault. I'm pretty sure I've been the laziest/worst bandster ever, and should probably consider myself lucky to have lost the 70+ lbs that i have lost. I rarely exercise, I eat way more than I should. Potato chips and ice cream have been great friends of mine.. not because I need to eat sliders.. just cause I can.
I know that I don't NEED a revision surgery.. Hopefully I never will ($$$) .. I just need to pull my cr@p together and actually do what I'm supposed to do.
le sigh,
Sam
For some reason this morning I got really down on my band. Maybe seeing several people getting revisions to the sleeve, or maybe just the stagnating weight-loss, or the gaining back of my magical 5lb loss.. or all of the above.
I had toyed with the idea of getting the sleeve in the first place, it just seemed a little too new to me. Not enough info out there yet. Of course this morning I was all "maybe I should look into a revision".. like a year is enough to make a difference in that. But this morning I was all "does kaiser do revisions? do they cover them? would I have to self pay? etc"
Speaking of, I haven't even been banded a year yet, so I KNOW that I'm not a failure, that I've plenty of time to lose more weight, etc. But I just FEEL like all progress has stopped. Of course if that's the case, that's my fault, not the bands fault. I'm pretty sure I've been the laziest/worst bandster ever, and should probably consider myself lucky to have lost the 70+ lbs that i have lost. I rarely exercise, I eat way more than I should. Potato chips and ice cream have been great friends of mine.. not because I need to eat sliders.. just cause I can.
I know that I don't NEED a revision surgery.. Hopefully I never will ($$$) .. I just need to pull my cr@p together and actually do what I'm supposed to do.
le sigh,
Sam
Thursday, April 5, 2012
funny for the day:
This is so true..
warning, she uses a little language (although in this video, not near as much as normal:
Jenna Marbles : How Diets Work
<3
Sam
warning, she uses a little language (although in this video, not near as much as normal:
Jenna Marbles : How Diets Work
<3
Sam
Sunday, April 1, 2012
weigh in
so this whole week i've learned an important lesson. Never re-weigh. at one point I was in the 212's .. until i stepped back on the scale. the it was back in the 213's. this morning i actually weighed the same (supposedly) after potty as i did before potty.. yeah okay sure.. but my official weigh in is 214.5. so up a bit from last week, but still lower than i'd been hovering for a month or more. I'll take it.
<3
Sam
<3
Sam
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