Did a light bulb just turn on??

 

I swear, You'd think this whole lap band/weight loss thing was rocket science the way I've been going at it.
But yesterday ... I was good with my food (mostly) and after work I went to the gym for 50 minutes of elliptical, and THEN went home and walked the dog for another 40 min (Thank  you daylight savings!) ..  my bodybugg said those two hours (ish)  burned about 700 calories.  At first I'm all amazed!!  then I'm all .. duh!! That's the whole point of exercise..  And all of that is probably why I was able to eat twice as much dinner as I should have (taco meat, cheese a few a lot of tortilla chips, home made salsa and guac) and still see my lowest weight yet on the scale this morning 217.1  .. not official weight, as it's not Sunday, however, this is encouraging.  Maybe if I actually keep this up I can get back to losing.  and find Onederland! and beyond!
And while I'm at it can I win the lotto so I can afford a trainer?  >.>

In other news, on March 23rd,   we'll be adding a new puppy to our family.  Yup puppy, potty training and all.  But I'm excited, it's a Welsh Corgi!!! so cute!!

Our puppy will be one of these

 

Also also, I don't think I mentioned this, but in my absence from blog land I figured out my painful elbow is due to tennis elbow.  joy >.<   So i've got a brace on, and whenever I remember I do my stretches.. And soon I get to learn the exercises to make this not happen again.  so yay!

But that's it for now.  Hopeing to stay excited enough to keep up what I'm doing!

<3
Sam

food scheduling

Robyn said something in her 10 Things Thursday post today that reminded me of a thought/question I've been pondering for a bit.

Food/meal schedules.  I often find myself hungry (and really hungry  not head hungry)  before dinner time. like 4:30/5 o'clock.   But when I stop and think, If I ate lunch at 11 like I usually do, that's more than reasonable to expect to be hungry.  If I'm eating the right portions, then I should be not hungry for 3-4 hours right?  so totally reasonable to be hungry at 4:30.  So, I guess, what I'm thinking is I need to work in an *appropriate* snack.  I'm thinking a bit of hummus and veggies or a small portion of beef jerky or something.   There's just so much conflicting info out there. "3 meals a day!! no more! no less!!"  and then "5 small meals a day, keeps your metabolism going" .. blah blah.  I figure I just need to do what works for me.

Speaking of portion sizes, I really really need to go buy more of the 1 cup sized ziploc containers.  It's just too easy to say "one more scoop" in a bigger container.  I used that today and at first my head was like "that is SO not enough chicken salad (Costco, very yummy)!"  and I told it "remember how you felt yesterday after more than this? yes, this is enough" so we'll see how after lunch goes :)  


blah, I'm back and blogging more than ever! and more randomly than ever too I think.

<3
Sam

Grrr. F$%#$ing ignorance

Seriously, I can't read news article comments anymore cause it just pisses me off... and apparently I can't listen to the radio anymore either.

On my way home the radio station i listen too always does an "Other Peoples problems" bit, where people write or call in with their issue and then people call in with their thoughts/solutions, they also post it on facebook.  Today was something along the lines of "i met my BFF in a weight loss program, we instantly bonded blah blah blah.  Today I'm still losing weight slowly, but surely, but she got Gastric bypass surgery, and her weight fell off like magic"  (here's where i expected  something along the lines of "i'm so jealous i don't want to be around her") .. Now the friend who had surgery is being a royal witch to the still fat friend, and making jokes at her expense and saying "you're to fat to do ____ "  .

One of the DJ's then says " wow, she really turned on who she used to be.. but before we go any further, can we say Carrie (or whatever her name was) cheated" ...

OMFG.

Pissed.  And then if you read the facebook comments on the post, mixed in with "ditch the friend" is a lot of , "easy way out" "cheated"  "in 5 years she'll be fat again" and "at least you'll have earned the right to be skinny"

WTF?  earn the right to be skinny?  paying tons of money, working your ass off and changing everything about how/what you eat  etc. doesn't earn you the right to be skinny? for fucks sake people need to grow up.

My response " While this friend is no friend judging from her actions, a lot of you need to realize that weight loss surgery is NOT the easy way out, or cheating. When the best thing an obese person can do for themselves is lost weight, does it really matter how they do it?"

I would have said more, but I was on my phone...  but just GRRR.  I wish.. I dunno what I wish, just that people were less stupid and took some time to educate themselves before they say things.
If you want to weigh (lol see what I did there?) in on this, here's the facebook page:
http://www.facebook.com/SlackerAndSteveFans

<3
Sam

I'm back, mentally conflicted, and ready to work!

Okay, so it might have been a month since my last post.  Oops. AND I kinda left you all with a cliff-hanger about an upset feeling tummy and heart burn. Forgive me?

Turns out I probably was just eating too much since I haven't really had the problem since. *whew*

However in the last month I've just been hovering at 217-219.  While I haven't gained weight, which is pretty much a miracle with my food choices/amounts, I haven't lost, which is the whole point.

So, for the umpteenth time, I'm back on track!! I swear!  And I have additional reminders/motivation this time!

Let me explain:  My hubby and I just started (last week) renting out our extra bedroom to a friend.  This benefits both sides in that it's saving her money to enable her to pay down her debt and basically get in a better financial place.  And basically the same for us.  After fixing a few things and the new washer/dryer we want, the rest of the money is going to paying off big chunks of credit cards and into savings! yay!
 But as for motivation, this girl is 26, a little over 6ft tall, and easily over 400lbs.  I like her a lot (dur, we're sharing a house with her) .. but her attitude is .. rubbing me the wrong way.  She "jokes" about being the "happy fat kid" when she eats her appetizer and entire plate and dessert when we go out to eat.  She says she's hot and sexy and all the guys know it and want her.. And I'm all for having a healthy self esteem at any weight (which i'm still learning for myself).. I think she's just covering.  She's also said "I look at pictures of myself at 15, and then now, and it's depressing" .. Hard to be the happy fat kid when you're upset about that.  I soooo want to say something, but I know it's not my place, and still being over 200lbs after having WLS, do I even have a leg to stand on? I mean I know personally, that a million people can tell you their opinion and what to do, but as we all know, until YOU decide to fix it, nothing is going to happen.

She's also reminded of a lot of my factors in choosing WLS.  She can't go up the 6 stairs in out split level without breathing hard, she can't fit in any booths.. she wants a new car but "only a 2 door cause they're easier to get in/out of".   I didn't want my life choices to be determined by my weight.   So I think I've found some renewed focus to cut back down on portion sizes and get my lazy behind back in the gym.  A) I don't want to ever be in that spot again  and b) maybe I can provide some positive motivation for her.  maybe.

So, apparently I'm wordy when I come back.  Thanks for listening (reading?)!

<3,
Sam

And the panic is back

Yeah, panic is back. Heartburn isn't (although my throat is a bit scratchy).. but my stomach.. aches.  Not like "feeling sick" ache. just Uncomfortable ache.   And Ronnie had mentioned something about if my surgeon had fixed a hiatal hernia during my surgery I wouldn't be having these symptoms.. What if he didn't fix or mention a hernia? as far as I know I've never had one to fix. 


The most worrying part of this is, it's supposed to snow like 20 inches starting soon, and going through saturday. (not to mention the fact that it'll be the weekend)  Do call and see what they say? 


I'm sure the fact that I can drink water just fine still is promising .. but achy isn't.   I have mushies and soups for the next few days.  Maybe just tough it out till monday. 


looking back through communications with Kaiser, in sept, and Nov. I'd mentioned my stomach aching too. (Nov was when I went in for a bit of an unfill) .. For sure calling the surgeon, just not sure when I can get in there.  *sigh* I hate complications.


*edit* surgeon has been called, message left.   Plan is unless I hear otherwise I'm doing soups and mushies this weekend.  


<3


*edit #2*  surgeon called back, told me to get some liquid mylanta and/or prilosec and if it gets worse over the weekend call him to see him monday or tuesday. 

Sorry For the Panic

Yeah, sorry about panicking yesterday. I just always tend to jump to the worst possible conclusion.

And while I suppose it is possible that having JUST the heartburn could mean I have a slipped band, odds are it Is probably something more along the lines of eating too much.  So now I'm going to focus on really trying hard to follow my bandster rules.  Even if this means strapping a measuring cup to my purse to bring with me everywhere. I know I've been eating more than I should.  So not too uprising if that's the cause of heartburn feeling (and dur, I shouldn't if anything because that can lead to a slipped band)  ..

So we're going on to focusing on being good!
And bundling up for the  foot of snow we're supposed to get starting tonight. *sigh*

<3

Sam

A little advice?

I hate having such a pessimistic head.  The last couple of days (maybe just one?) after eating (which i can do mostly just fine, just a little pain to let me know to chew more)  I've had a burning in my throat afterwards.  I wonder is this a new heartburn?  I used to have really bad/constant heartburn pre-band. But from day one after surgery, no more prilosec for me ( I was so thrilled!)

So I'm wondering, is this a new way for me to feel heartburn?  and if so.. does this mean a slipped band?  I can eat just fine (probably too much .. which I've read can cause a slipped band) I can drink just fine (after the first couple of hours of my day). Nothing else feels weird, just this throat heartburn.

Since last  night though I've been worried about a slipped band.  Looking up symptoms online, and heartburn is the only one I can tick off.  But I know I've been eating too much lately.  *sigh*  now I'm obsessively worrying about it.  Do I call my surgeon? Do I just do a few days of liquids and see if all is better?

HELP!

<3,
Sam